Valentine's Day
It's been a few days since I've updated this..... the week has sucked. I thought I had finally got out of this rut and got things going in a good direction and had a good plan, but it all fell apart. So that took me right back to square one and now I've got to start all over.
Valentine's Day sucked big time! It wasn't just because I was single, but that sucked too. I ended up getting into a huge fight with someone who I considered one of my best friends and ending our friendship. This would be the same girl I sent flowers to a while back, who I really liked her a lot and thought so highly of her. I found out this week she was seeing someone, who before she had denied to me she was interested in. Not only was she seeing this person, it had been going on for a while (months) and they were getting ready to make a serious commitment in their relationship and move in together.
Yes I liked this girl as more than a friend, so it was a little bit of a bummer and that cut the last shred of hope of ever winning her over. That was nothing though! I knew she just liked me as a friend, but I still flirted and hoped she fell in love with me someday, but I also still kept looking for someone else to take her place. We were never in a relationship, so the fact she was seeing someone else didn't bother me to much, it was just kind of a "well that's a bummer". Looking back now I am not sure what the hell I was thinking and I feel like a total idiot.
What really did it, what really sucked, was that I considered her one of my best friends! I think I had every right to be pissed off. How can I be friends with someone when I don't even know who they are! How can I ever trust her again? What else hasn't she told me? What else will come up she won't tell me about? Her excuse for not telling me was that she didn't want to jinx it.
It was pretty brutal, because I have a hard time just walking away from anyone. I'll fight tooth and nail to fix things if I can. I'm really laid back and easy going, it takes a lot to get under my skin. But I don't think that was just a little thing I was upset about. She completely betrayed my trust and that is a very big thing to me! If she would have just told me in the first place I would have understand and it wouldn't have been a big deal.
So yeah on top of an already bad week, on Valentine's Day I lost not only the girl I liked, but one of my best friends.
Valentine's Day sucked big time! It wasn't just because I was single, but that sucked too. I ended up getting into a huge fight with someone who I considered one of my best friends and ending our friendship. This would be the same girl I sent flowers to a while back, who I really liked her a lot and thought so highly of her. I found out this week she was seeing someone, who before she had denied to me she was interested in. Not only was she seeing this person, it had been going on for a while (months) and they were getting ready to make a serious commitment in their relationship and move in together.
Yes I liked this girl as more than a friend, so it was a little bit of a bummer and that cut the last shred of hope of ever winning her over. That was nothing though! I knew she just liked me as a friend, but I still flirted and hoped she fell in love with me someday, but I also still kept looking for someone else to take her place. We were never in a relationship, so the fact she was seeing someone else didn't bother me to much, it was just kind of a "well that's a bummer". Looking back now I am not sure what the hell I was thinking and I feel like a total idiot.
What really did it, what really sucked, was that I considered her one of my best friends! I think I had every right to be pissed off. How can I be friends with someone when I don't even know who they are! How can I ever trust her again? What else hasn't she told me? What else will come up she won't tell me about? Her excuse for not telling me was that she didn't want to jinx it.
It was pretty brutal, because I have a hard time just walking away from anyone. I'll fight tooth and nail to fix things if I can. I'm really laid back and easy going, it takes a lot to get under my skin. But I don't think that was just a little thing I was upset about. She completely betrayed my trust and that is a very big thing to me! If she would have just told me in the first place I would have understand and it wouldn't have been a big deal.
So yeah on top of an already bad week, on Valentine's Day I lost not only the girl I liked, but one of my best friends.
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